hope

i had hope that you would show me
how much you loved me

i waited
and i told you what it would take

but you still couldn’t show me

remember in june
you said you wish you were here?

because you could show me
and prove me wrong
and change my mind
you were here
and you had yet another chance
so

why couldn’t you show me?

i wanted to be proven wrong
but now i just want to forget
and it seems that everyday
it weighs me down more

and maybe it hurts a little
maybe
it hurts because you were a waste of time
a waste of words
a waste of these words
but inside i’m laughing at you
because you’re no king of the jungle
the words you say don’t match what you’ve done
what you’re doing
because the king of the jungle fights for what he loves
you hold on to the ones you shouldn’t
because they fill you with this bravado
and you think
‘yes i am king’
and like before
nothing you said makes anything better
just worse
and everytime you opened your mouth
i was reminded of your ignorance
and how you never could make anything better
how you don’t even have half the strength to sway my thoughts in favor of you

but one day these words will be disposed
and you will be forgotten

Written/Contributed by Anita Siraki

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